I've spent alot of today (and last night) thinking. I 'thought' I had my life on track and was going in the right direction, however now I don't think I am. Right now, I feel I've made a huge mistake and I'm not sure how to go about putting it right and getting myself back on the right track. To be honest I'm not sure what the right track is, but I do know it's not the one I am currently going down.
Sometimes, I jump in with both feet, rather than dipping my toe and this is such an occation. I jumped head first into something thinking it was 'just perfect' and now I am starting to realise it's very far from perfect and not what I want at all.
So how do I now correct this mess without people thinking I'm a failure that will never amount to anything? I know raising kids, keeping a family together and running a home is no easy task and to do that, must mean I've amounted to something, but there are always going to be 'those' people within the family who will say things that will no doubt upset me. I can't carry on with the way I am going though just to prove a point to others, can I? Thats just not the sensible option, not when I know at some point I'm going to scream and it's all going to come crashing down around me. Maybe I should just admit it now, get it over and done with....
Only time will tell if I've made the right or wrong choice (again)